I am learning to trust myself. I am learning to trust in the voice. In my voice, and in his voice.
Sometimes they sound like one voice. But I trust it anyway.
This voice tells me "There is always hope, there is always hope."
There is always daylight. Even though the night seems long. Even though this moment feels impossible and endless, heart breaking, even torturous, there will always be light ahead. Always always.
I want the world to know that even though darkness exists, and even though I may make mention of it, it doesn't mean that that is all there is to it. There is more to me than this darkness, this despair and this agony and pain. Focusing on it only amplifies it. Focus on the light. This is my message to the world.
Look at how bright the hope of our Savior's love is. Don't just look at it though - bask in it! Wash yourself in it! Clothe yourself in it! Partake of it! Make it a part of your very being. Breathe it in. Breathe it out. You are strong. You are capable. You are powerful.
I am learning that this is who I am. I haven't known this - it never occurred to me until recently that I was literally living in darkness. I was basking in it. Clothing myself in it. Partaking of it. I became it.
Now that I can see more clearly I see that there's the beyond. There's a "beyond" the darkness that exists right here inside of me.
I give all glory to "the voice" of the Lord inside of me. Guiding me. Leading me. Directing me. I am so excited to have finally found daylight - and it was inside of me all along.
